Rules.

I've been feeling out of sorts lately, but I've also been feeling really guilty.  Guilty I'm not working harder to find a roommate, or a new job, but mostly that I haven't been blogging.  The goal was to blog everyday, and cross one thing off the list a week, and since I haven't been doing that I feel bad.  The silly thing is, I made up those rules.  I'm the one who decided how much the blog, and how to do it, so what does it matter if I take a mental health week?

I think we all do that in some way or another.  We self-impose huge expectations, and then when we don't/can't meet them we feel bad.  About ourselves.  For breaking the rules.  The rules we made up in the first place.

So,  this week, I'm hoping to blog more, but also vowing to take it a day at a time and try to do just one (or two) things a day.  (kind of like a mini-52weeks.)  Also, if I don't get something done, or I don't blog, I'm not going to stress about it too much.  Think of this as my re-entry into 'normal' blogging / getting things done life.

Here are a few of the things I want / need to do:

1.  Catch up on the blog (specifically the true love posts)

2.  Update my Acting resume, and my professional resume.

3.  Find a roommate.  (My place is amazing, its available the middle of May / beginning of June... e-mail me about it.)

4.  Send out a few headshots and resumes (actor stuff)

5.  Get an oil change.

6.  Reply to an email or two from Match guys.
7.  Make a revised 52weeks list, so I don't have to be at a loss for what to do next.

No pressure, but I'll feel much better when all of these things are done!

So, maybe my life is a little out of control.

HolyOhMyGodLifeSlowDown...

Whew, o.k. now that that's out of the way... I'm feeling a little overwhelmed right now.  Maybe 1 part overwhelmed, 2 parts rudderless, and 1 part panicked.  Last week was one of those weeks where everything made me worry, (job, roommate,life,finances...) and I felt like I didn't know which thing to deal with first.  (Aaaaaand if I focused on just one thing, I was totally ignoring the three other things, which stressed me out even more.)  I'm feeling a little better now, but you've got to accept my apologies for not opening my computer even once to blog.    Here's the deal, I owe you a post or two about how finding true love went, I'll give you an update on the epic party my roommate and I threw, and I'll catch you up on how I'm catching up / getting ahead this week.  I'll post a few more tonight, so check back, but mostly, send me some good energy, or pray I don't lose it :)